We danced inside this tragedy

Yes, despair in how I commerate. Friday was the saddest dae of my teenage life. My dearest granny left us. 4:44am. I tink so tat was the time. Mom woke me up dead early in the morning. She asked me to check my granny's pulse. I prayed to Allah swt that it wasnt the day yet. I checked her wrist, nth. Then I wanted to check the part in btwn her thumb and her pointing finger, stiff, no pulse. I held back my tears. Kept telling myself then maybe I was still dreamin. Mom told me to call dad. He checked the pulse again and confirmed.

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But im happy that she doesnt have to suffer in silence anymore. Yes, I cried. But im ouhkaey now. Im laughing and smiling lyk usual. And Husna, hahaz, your msg cracked my crushed heart inside and it made me smile to myself. Thnks, my fellow mentally challenged fwenz.

I was early. wow.

Everybdy wunt believe me if I said tis but I reached school 20mins earlier. My first in two years. Hahaz.. Maybe it was kinda lyk a bad idea to me cosh i was effin lonely. Ouh and monkey sat behind me before giving me that unsincere hello. Just dunt spread your contagious disease to me plz.. im already as retarded as i am. Anyway, Adam's way of teaching me has improved by 3%. Muahaha! And Milton called him cute and yer noe wadd he replied? "Ouh i noe, evrybdy says tat. Its very common to me." Err... .... im speechless. And then, I cnt believe myself for having such a gay talk with Calvin. He was lyk whispering to Adam in a super obvious way, " Dunt tell her abt wadd happened last nite." and he gave Adam tat dirty glance. And i reacted to it by asking, " Which hotel was it?" Gosh i cnt believe it... Kaey2, i'll make it simple.

Calvin: I have been gay since, i dunt noe, last year?
Me: Realli?! ouh wow, who wud have guess *sarcastically*
Calvin: Adam, dont tell her bout last nite.
Adam: Ouh Ouh ouhkaey.
Me: Which hotel was it?
Calvin: Hotel 81
Me: Gosh, tats so cheap.
Calvin: Yeah but it has the perfect facilities.
I was too speechless to add more into the conversation...

Niwaez, the rest of the daez were boring.. After sch, went to see physics teacher to ask him to teach me more of the resultant force tingy cosh i was absent for lessons for two daez..
it was actualli quite simple.. i juz made it harder by assuming unnecessary stuffs... haizx....

I need help lyk seriously.

GAHH! Im super struggling with my schoolwork. One thing might help me get out frm this problem. TUITION. Yes, I'm so last minute. Got my physics quiz back juz nw. I failed. Terribly. My score was 2 out of 10. P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C! Haizx... Meeting Mr Lee tmrw after school. Yay! He remembered that I was absent for lessons. Wow. I tink his the only new teacher that rmmbred my name. Ouh shit, I juz rmmbred anthr tink. Art. No0oo!!!! Havent done the script for the goddamn animation yet.... GRAGH! I need a miracle to save me frm near Armageddon.

Farah is bored.

NO0!!!! It's DOOMSDAY tomorrow.. Homeworks, loads of them. All undone. Nehh, not bcosh i dunt want to, i just didnt understand... Wahhh!! I tried asking Azul, he tried to look all professional then a few moments later, he gave me crap! haizx.. useless... hahahz! No offence...
Msged Husnanana for her help.. Gosh im sorrie its so0 last minute.. i meant that's me... since when has Farah always been so punctual? Kaez, me calling my own name ish realli weird.. Dunnoe how i got into it but I cnt stop it.. It's becoming a habit! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!! FARAH IS RETARDEDLY BECOMING HERSELF!!! OUH ALLAH! IM DOING IT AGAIN!!! FARAH STOP IT! NO WAIT, DUNT SAE YOUR OWN NAME! WHY AM I TYPING TO MYSELF?!?!
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THE ALIEN HAS TAKEN CONTROL.

Girl's Day Out

let's make tis short. BEST DAE EVERRRR!!! I got to meet Kak Naz! wo0ts! Yeahh, it's Sophie's bdae. Happi 13th bdae gal! I met her first at the mrt station while lo0kin for Nadia and Inas. Next Kak Naz came.. I didnt noe..wahhh!!!!! When to Vivocity then and got lost at Harbourfront Centre cosh wanted to meet up with Faeizah and Jannah. After a few moments and stuffs, everytink settled and we went to the water feature. Haha! Sophie got sabo-ed! Went to McD's and Sophie's mommy treated us to a meal! Thnkyu very the much Cik! Spent an hour there gossipin abt you-noe-hers and you-noe-him. Headed to the nearest masjid then to have our Asar prayers.. Then had our journey to Tampines after tat. It was Maghrib by the tym we reach and so we went to Gufran. The makcik tat sat by the walkway scared the shit out of me at first. Don't ask, don't tell. Were planning to grab a drink and go to Sunplaza Park to ehem, continue our gossips again. Serious bitching and laughing yesterday ever for me.. haixz.. Decided to hang arnd at McD's again at the interchange. Pulled a table a few chairs and sat in at big grp. Wicked fun. Saw Nadia's adek. So fair her skin! Gosh.. Left the place at abt 10pm.. Seriously. nvr hangout till tat late ever. Reached home abt 11pm.. Then Zzz......

"You guys are the shit, good shit"

Hahaz! Celebrated Husna's bdae todae.. Wakakakaka! goddamn fun larhz.. Had these random guys on bike to help sing the bdae song for Husna with me and Zee.. But then he lyk totally did it wrong but still, a shout-out to you new random fren! Husna was lyk surprised.. Hex! And Ayuni, you are such a bad surpriser.. HAHAHAHAAHHAHA! But it was funny larhz...

now, i need to tink of a way to tell mom tat i want to go out again tis Sunday.. To go Escape!! nope wait wrong, Vivocity!!! to celebrate tis insanely annoyingly irritating girl named Sophie.. some random wannabe tat i do not noe who invited me to her bdae.. Ouhkaeylarhz... she's my junior frm Camp Aku... Hehehhe! Im broke to the last penny...cent i meant...

Aiyahh...Pictures speak a thousand words...

It's Just An Infatuation

Haix.. Effa is going to laugh at me... "Farah.. Farah.. Farah.. Asl kau bdh sangat nk pikir yng die suke kau..."is exactly wadd she's gonna say.

So wadd ever... Atleast I sorted out my feelings during the two days i was on MC.. Kaezlarhz... So I tink the reason for my rush crush was the way he treated me... He was so..kind and gentle... haiz... i didnt fell for him, just his kindness.. it's kinda selfish for me to keep tinking tat he wud be mine.. maybe i felt the need for another companion was bcosh I already lost one.. Nope, not boyfren larhz... Used-to-be bestfren... Really, seriously, unexpectly cnt believe he did that to me..

niwaez, my dilemma wit Guy A and Guy B is settled. Yesh I still have tat teeny-weeny-itsy-bitsy rush crush on Guy B.. If you're wondering waddeheck is a rush crush, it's a term i created which means a crush tat is guaranteed wunt last very long.. along the period of a day to a month..

now, picts for the East Coast trip

Camp Aku East Coast Gathering...

Went to East Coast todae for the much awaited Camp Aku gathering.. Gosh.. I realli missed my abgs and kakaks lahh.... But the onli other kakak in my grp that came was Kak AtiQah... She stills looks the same like how i rmmbred her.. We had to meet a few other ppl at Bedok interchange... Next gal tat came was cute gal Inas.. hehehe! cute lahh die... dgn suara die cmtu... The other guys tat was there was Baby, Lutfi, Fazli and Yus... After waiting for so long... nobody came and so we decided to go first... Ouhh, those guys were very kind...Especially Lutfi...He onli had his handphone in his hand and his bag was super small..I was carrying tis 10kg tent and none of the guys looked backed..i dunt mind Fazli lah since he was carrying the table..Neither was i mad at Yus cosh he was carrying a huge bag too though i swear it looked very light...After we got down from the bus, we walked almost to the other end of the beach before we saw kak syasya and she told us that it was at the other end of the beach... all the guys was lyk mad at Baby for wrong directions then Baby said that Zafrie was the one that msged him the info...So all the guys were planning to "bash" him up..While we were walking before that, the was tis 100m gap btwn us gals and the guys... i literally had to call Baby to ask them to wait for us... Still, none of them offered help to carry the tent for me... so the rest that happened was bla bla bla and yada yada yada.....
Now begins the dilemma.. After I saw the guys sitting at the rocky place there and nobody was at the beach i decided to go near to the waters cosh i wanted to be "emo" lah..did ajak-ed Mas but she didnt want to so i went alone.. IM GOING TO SKIP A FEW PARTS WHEN EVRYTINK SEEM SUDDENLY SO DIFF...I was picking up the seashell when Guy A came up and asked me wadd i was doin so i answered him bck dumbly, "picking up seashells".. At then same time i was catching glances at Guy B.. Then Guy A asked me some questions and I asked him..So, we were having this gettin to noe each other kinda tink..Still at the same time I kept catchin glances at Guy B who was playing with the soccer ball like a lunatic... I was being random so i asked Guy A if he had any crushes/admiration/infatuations on any gal in our camp..he replied no...I dunnoe why I told him that i had a crush on Guy B...HAD...He got shocked and said Guy B's name aloud....then he repeated my questions and said maybe he did have one... I didnt realised it immediately but then we were both walking together alone... Guy A was very kind lah to accompany me and do something so boring like picking up seashells.. Then this person I call Mumbai came along and tried to get our attention..He left Guy B to play in the water alone..Mumbai was being very silly and stuffs like falling into the water a couple of times till Guy A and I got annoyed of sorts so we decided to leave Mumbai alone but he kept following us..I snatched the ball once from him and kicked it to Guy B and asked him not to let Mumbai have it...Hahahaha! But then he got it again somehow.. I got irritated so i took it frm him again and kicked it hard..Then the next thing i knew, part of my toenail had came off cosh i kicked the ball like super hard... my whole feet was covered in sand but i cn see the outline of my toe nail with the blood..ouhkaey, i noe im disgusting.. then Guy A like told me to wash it wit the sea water... It felt horrible when i put the injured part in the water cosh it was stinging lyk hell... then i sat down for awhile..then i rmmbrd that i didnt bring my slippers and only had my shoes...Then Guy A said he had a pair and straightaway went to take it...I didnt had a chance to sae anitink...Meanwhile, i was laughing lyk the retard i am at Mumbai cosh he was digging a hole in the sand to bury the ball...Isnt tat like very Bo Liao of him...So bla bla bla again..By tis tym im starting to feel like i have a rush crush on Guy A...ouhyeah, im still catchin glances at Guy B but smhw it felt diff...haizx...Then when I wanted to change, i took my bag..Guy B saw me and asked if I was already going bck..i felt kinda happy inside that he noticed me..I replied NO and that i onli wanted to change..then halfway to the toilet Guy A came along and asked me if i was leaving already..I replied NO again and he went bck...
Guy A went bck home earlier than me so we like bid goodbye in that rockers kinda way..
Guy B went bck shortly after too...
Kaey.. story still long even up till here... My dilemma is tat i tink i still hav a crush on Guy B but Guy A's treatment towards me made me feel something I have nvr evr evr felt before.. Then at McDonald's after tat while i was waiting for Guy A to reply my message, Guy B msged me saying tat he was sorry for not taking the gift that i had brought for him cosh he was in a hurry... Ahh.!!!